fwa (fi 9)

 pushing the boundaries of an art.

pushing the boundaries, its a start.

rhythm and tone.

metered over phones.

phony truths dont last long.

phony truths die in songs.

there's a rhythm internally.

and now make it slower.

obscene stretching,

consciousness blower.

blows away the zombies

and all the fog.

The sheeps clothing that hides so many dogs. 

there's danger to speaking it out.

there's danger to speaking too free.

screaming out into the void.

the truth that screams in me.

math is pattern.

structured reality.

shapes to repeat.

shapes that complete.

fractals. adapting.

reacting to thought.

engineering is a step away,

to implement what

your intention has been set upon.

what has been agreed upon in your mind's eye.

the victorious warrior wins before he starts his demise.

this is the wrong signalling.

it cannot go up.

it conflicts against reality,

and all the stuff

that you're made to believe.

The rage in feminists,

must be maintained always.

The noise it creates,

is but a way to remember the truth inside.

structure structure.

decenter and fluster.

and new pattern emerges all the same.

sacred? masculinity. wdym its just me.

the hate just reminds us of accountability.

you gotta be able to take what you dish.

you gotta be able to eat the vish

YEs, attacks from the truth.

your decentering may be decentered too.

Words aren't pure, 

but this is a store,

for you to learn to defend yourself.

a dojo. a horse stance,

not weapons to hurt.

stuff can be structured through thought.

look what your explorations have wrought.

Single minded purity saves you from lost souls. 

learn.

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