hysteria (midnight)
Welcome to Midnight Hysteria. Not my Poetry blog but rather the feeling, or the state of frenzy it was meant to express. There's a restlessness that resides within me. It is a feeling I felt again today after a long time. the product of a mediocre, aimless day, powerful philosophical ideas, a lack of self control over my hedonic pathways, a self deception about the consequences of my actions that couples together into an amazing cocktail of artistry, self-hatred and romanticization. Each motion of my thought is so rigid it threatens to choke me. Yet the creative self destruction, the tribute to which is every drop of happiness in my neural circuits is crying so hard for expression that it just cannot be compromized with. In the friction of these two opposites, are published incredibly self aware, bittery sarcastic, utterly pretentious streams of thought. I find it disgusting honestly, yet I find it impossible to not express them. The charcter of my philosop...