Freedom is within grasp

 Wherever you might be in life, there are a lot of things that are being thrown at you. But what you can realise is that a lot of it is really garbage. Societal expectations, projections, judgements. Your own conditioning of liking certain experiences.

If you really look through the veil, freedom is always within your grasp. It is simply a matter of realising the current framing of your experience, figuring out the goals that come with that framing, finding an appropriately abstract way of acheving these goals and dedicating all the rest of the time to also engendering an internal place of love and freedom. 

As a student and a researcher in a very intellectually rigorous course, I have a tendency to get overwhelmed often by assignments and readings. However, it is not an issue with how smart I am, rather I am just not allocating time efficiently when I do fall behind. Doing the readings before class and treating your class as a revision, doing all your assignments on your own and letting the process transform you so that you learn the requisite skills. Just doing these two things can change your life as a student. However, we get caught up with so many other things. 

I cannot care about other societal expectations anymore. It is not conducive to my freedom. Anxiety about my future will also not serve me. By efficiently dealing with my current responsibilities and becoming strong I can engender a place for love, freedom and surrender internally. I have the absolute faith that I will be able to do so even in the future. My purpose is in itself to defend this place, to expand it to let it grow and to share it with others. That is dharma. In the sincere pursuit of moksha one forgets moksha, sees the beauty of life here and now and can engender an internal place to examine and be concentrated on the highest ideal. 

In examining things which do not have love and truth, there is no reality, only illusion. It is imperative to discriminate such truth internally and to surrender continuously to that which is.  If society tells you that you will be nothing if you continue surrendering, then so be it. I am nothing but a simple human, and I do not require you to validate me otherwise because I see the infinite beauty in that. Each human is also a teacher and sometimes a learner, teaching you how to efficiently deal with the problems of their life. Look at what makes their eyes light up when they talk about, observe their breath their every movement. They can teach you an infinite amount even when no giving or taking is involved. 

A lot of the other purposes we think for ourselves are also post hoc rationalizations of fear through thinking. Excessive creative thinking is itself often a response of fear. I am done fearing and suffering. The creative thinking also needs an outlet for freedom to express itself into the world and can only come through when that space has been created and maintained. And for that I am desperate. Ready to fight tooth and nail. To continue exploring the wonders of consciousness as deeply as possible, in a space which has been created as a bulwark from societal conditioning and suffering. To create that place is also something which I use my buddhi and creativity for. I am grateful for his question and the depth of its beauty. I am grateful for my curiosity. For none of this comes or happens to me. It all happens through me. 

Namaste.